Fall ramblings...

In 9 days I will take my last final exam of the fall semester. My first semester at Cal State Channel Islands. I'm pretty sure I'll pass all my classes. I'll pass finance because the professor is curving the final grades, thank goodness. It's not that it was a hard class, I just blew the midterm. Too many damn formulas.  I complain a lot about wanting to quit, about being over going to school, but honestly, I think I'm just scared. What happens when I graduate? Do I get a job? What if I try to get a job and fail? What if I get a job and hate it? This semester has been pretty stressful. Lots of changes, good and bad, have taken place in the Miller household. Our darling dog Rachael died suddenly last week. That sucked. Hard. I miss her and still have trouble keeping the tears back sometimes. My 18 year old will be here for Christmas. Kinda torn on that whole issue. She is currently, officially, a high school drop out. Is that my fault? Did I some how fail her miserably? Her status changes almost hourly. At the moment she's supposed to be moving back to get her crap together. So much for a guest room lol. The younger ones are ecstatic that she's coming. She's an awesome big sister. I got 4 hours of sleep last night because I was working on the presentation for my team in Marketing. It could have been awesome but in my opinion they screwed it up. It was completely different than every other presentation so they got skeered. Ours would've so kicked butt if they would have just done it the way I wanted to. Someone should pay me to do Power Points. Way off topic, but I can't wait to see Jack Black in Gulliver's Travels. That movie looks so damn funny. Anywho. It's 7:30 and I'm going to get the kids bathed and in bed. I'm so exhausted, and I don't have any school work due tomorrow, so I think I'll just go to bed when they do. Lord knows I need the rest.